Ee Eng

Posted Thursday, November 3, 2011 // 0 comments (+)

It's been so so long since I last updated my blog. This is my new blog. And it's my most precious bb Cynthia help me make de. So sweet of her. Awesome, as always.
New blog, new start, new life.
Every new start of the day starts when I get up from my sleep. I might think the whole night, vex the whole night, or even cry the entire night. But, as long as I'm able to open my eyes to see the sunrise. It's a new start, I will still continue to live.
Sleeping is the best remedy to heal the heart, for me.
Even though I got trouble sleeping at night, cuz before I get into sleep. I tend to think alot..
Think about how my life sucks every single day. Think about those people whom care for me. Think of almost anything happen for the entire day. Think of how to make people whom loves me happy. Most of night, I feel depress.
However, as I step out of my house as heading out in the noon. I will be fine.
This few days, I've been thinking about the past 11 months. Through this 11 months, a lot of things happened. But I still stick to him, no matter what he does. No matter how much negative comments I got from my friend/ grandma/ even myself. I still keep on going on, just for that love I have for him.
After this few days of thoughts, I'd say that.. If that incident didn't take place. I'd still go back to him. That incident had happened, and I'm already dead in the heart for him. Adding up those disappointments he gave me.
It ended.
Here's what I wanna say, 11 months may be short in other peoples eyes. To me, it's damn long. And it's my first relationship that pass more than 2 months. I'm really glad that I've got him this 11 months, there's sad yet happy moments. The things he did for me, never be forgotten. I appreciate those things that I felt touch over these months. I somehow learn to really really love someone. I felt as though every time we break up, I've got the urge running back to him. I finally really place someone in my heart and never let anyone in. I start to learn to be faithful. All these while, my love for him is ever genuine. No matter how bad my attitude were. Just wanna say, through these days..
I've grown attach to you.
Now that we're no longer together. I wish to say sorry for every heart ache I inflict on you. Thank you for every smile on my face when I'm with you.