Xiao xiao gui, I miss you.
I got you from a pet shop at Bugis.
I chose you personally cuz you were very active in the place, you ran about and you were so small. Its somehow love at first sight.
I asked for assistant to pick you up for me.
And I bought the stuff that's needed for you.
One thing I regretted was I don't have enough cash to buy a bigger cage for you.
But I was about to do so soon, and to get a partner for you too.
After I got you, I promised myself, I will treat you right.
We went home together in a long journey by walking from Bugis to my house. I place you on a chair and I told my grandma not to place you on the floor.
You were active as usual, running on the wheel.
I held you up, and told you 'Hi, my uncle call me xiao gui. But since you're smaller than me, I'd name you xiaoxiaogui. I'm going to work, see you in the night.' I gave you a kiss and placed you back into the cage.
And when I came back, you started to go to second level of the cage. I got a feel that you'll trying to impress me that you went up to second level using the slide.
And I praise you for it too.
So, I wanted to play audi. I pulled the chair and place you right next to me. So I played, when my game ended or so I will take a look at you.
A fact that I don't deny, time pass..
I don't pull you next to me when I'm playing my games. Often times, I delayed the time of changing bedding for you. And I forgot to change water even though I put food for you.
But still, I wanted to take care of you sweet little thing.
I bring myself to do what I'm suppose to do for you.
Last night, I reached home. I place food for you again and you were still running on the wheel.
I went to sleep, thinking that you'll still be there running when I wake up, cuz you always did that. Didn't really spend much time with you recently.
Today I woke up, I didn't saw you running on the wheel. I went over and saw that you were solid put under the slide. As you were very alert, I know you'd wake up if I flick at the cage. And I did, but you stay put still. I panicked and I started to call out for your name, still you didn't wake up. I know you've left, definitely. I open up the cage, hoping you'd run out of it and play hide and seek with me again. Even if it was tiring playing with you, I still love the feeling when I caught you in the end of it. I really didn't expect you will be gone, so soon.
My grandma told me to throw you away, I didn't want to. I wishing for you to open your eyes and run cuz you know I'd praise you again if you do that. Ended up, my grandma threw you down the rubbish dump. I can't accept the fact that you're gone xiao gui. And all I can think of was to get another one thats identical to you and bring back home again. So I did, I bought a new one. I placed it in the cage, I stood there for awhile looking at it. It might looks the same like you, but definitely its not. I feel so different now, and I wonder did I make a wrong move to get a new one to deny the fact that you're gone?
And after awhile looking around in the cage, he stood still where you stood this morning under the slide without moving. So, I flick at the cage and he moved. At the very least, he did move. And I'm happy about it. Xiao gui, even though I got him now but I still misses you as always.
The difference between you and him is the feeling I have towards you both individually.
I'm sorry I didn't spend much time with you.
Rest in peace, xxg.