Knowing that there wouldn't be a reply, I still took my courage to ask you out for valentine.

I'm afraid the night when I was about to sleep..

Layers and layers of memories often come at this timing.

I often think of the times where you were right by my side when I fall asleep, waking up by you disturbing. You're warmer than the sunshine outside the window pane every noon, yet the brightest moon in the night for me. Whenever I get to see the full-moon, I will think of the time where we kiss under the moonlight. I wish just for another kiss under the moonlight with no other one but you. Theres time where I woke up in the early morning feeling hungry, I remember that you'll order mac for me and we will eat it together. I miss the feeling of eating with you, I wish for a time where we can eat together again. In the night where you fell asleep, you'll take my hand to hug you and where you will kiss me on my forehead. I wish for another night that you will pull my hand over to hug you. I love the night where is so silent, but only hearing your breathe and sleepy face. I miss seeing your face in the night, and the pair of beautiful gently eyes in the morning. I wish to have another night where I get to see your sleepy face. When I see sweet couple together, I often think if you were here with me, I wouldn't have the need to envy sweet couple as we will be one. I miss the time where I'm playing with your hands and tell you how much I love your hands. Whenever I walked pass Gongcha, I will also think of the time where every time I see you, you'll be buying for me. I miss having Gongcha bought by you and the time where you accompany me at my workplace. Having my favourite drink with the one I love is one of the feeling I can rarely get. I miss that for once I went to find you when you were working, and we smoke and chatted at the branch, and eat double cheese burger with milo. Its also the night where you open up your arms when you saw me walking towards you. I miss taking pictures with you whenever I'm with you and hear you saying I got a fat face and even with my fat face, you still love me. I miss the one and only time where you blow my hair for me, and my hair was tangling everywhere yet you still patiently blow dry every strain hair of mine. I miss calls from you every now and than, when I just don't have to worry because you'll always be there. The day where my hamster running around and you were catching it, even though I know you don't really like to change for hamster, but you did it and seeing you playing with hamster were one of the cutest moment that might not be back again. Miss the time where I can't bear for you to leave when I'm going to work. The first time we took public transport which is a bus from Bugis to home. The day where I attend Jay birthday where you say I look nice. The day where we went prawning and you said to bring me go every week. The night where we drank and it was raining heavily yet the first time we kiss. The feeling where your soft lips touches mine where I wish for the time to stop moving. The one wish that I always have was to watch a movie on a sofa, we didn't as my house don't have a sofa. But we finish one complete show at home together. The time where we went to k-box and you singing song, and how much I was in love with your voice. Your voice always stays in my mind like a melody thats stuck on replay. I miss the time where I miss you and you will appear right before me if you could. I miss the one and only midnight where you ask me for reasons so as to ask you come to find me, and you came.

Even though is just a short 3 months relationship we had, but there were so much memorable memories with you. Everynight before I go to sleep, layers and layers of it just being replayed in my mind. It hurts so much so much knowing that it'll never be back. I don't really what I'm doing recently, but I just think of you in the night no matter what and without fail. Telling people I give up on you when I didn't even forget about you a single bit. I don't know when.. or how.. I will be able to forget you where I give in my best to, just hoping that we will make it through every obstacles. I am getting sick with the drama I'm acting all over and over again every single day. Actually deep inside me, I don't even want to give up on you. I still strongly believe you're worth the fight. I just love you so much, I don't wish to live another day by myself without you. It hasn't ended, I have not given up.